January 27, 2011

A Birthday Tribute

Dearest Gavin,
Happy birthday! I miss you.
I think of you often. Most of the time memories of you make me smile. Except when I think too hard about the fact that you are gone. Then I most definitely cry. Yes, I still cry. Not often but sometimes. Every once in a while a day will come along where I just lose it. Crying ensues. Uncontrollable crying because I worry that more people I love very much will pass away. I worry about this often.

The funny thing is laughter eventually takes place of crying. It sounds crazy but I get all cried out.

And then I remember fondly how you loved when I laughed and cried at the same time and I hope you are watching. Getting some amusement from my silliness. I know you are watching me sometimes. I Hope you watched me bake this cake today. I lit the candles and blew them out just for you. Happy birthday. You are loved.


Chelsea Haynie said...

Very thoughtful. I love your blog Jane. I hope to meet you someday.

Cass Mooney said...

Lovely post Erin Jane. Yes--eventually tears are replaced with laughter..lovely and true.

Cassandra Marie said...

Happy Birthday Gavin :)

californiacheryl said...

Wish I could have known him. I know he was special to touch so many lives.

Annie Link said...

I love you Erin Jane.